The gleam in my eyes sparkled as I saw an opportunity to bum a loosey off the oncoming smoker. I had this passionate love with Newports and I was not going to let another smoker pass by without giving me one. I had been gripped to the affair with cigarettes from high school and from then it turned into a pack and a half a day romance.
Do you know how many cigarettes that really is? Each pack has 20 in it which means, it took 30 cigarettes to satiate my craving. Thank God it was back then when packs were about $2.25. Whew!
I started becoming aware that I loved it more than I should, noticing that I needed one every 45 minutes. I strategically planned each break by the cigarette that could satisfy my craving.
It had this endearing trait, I thought, and it continued to wrap my attention as would a great book. Was it a deep character flaw of mine or was it just one of those things that pasted a smile on my face that made smoking become a part of my daily grind?
Family and friends tried to compel me to think differently about cigarettes, telling me that it was not the thing for me. I was living in a social landscape where I felt as if everyone was against me and my relationship with the stogie. Then I started feeling as if I had to hide our alone time just so I could be around others without them judging me, though the pungent aroma told a different story that I couldn’t lie about. That was when the nuance of emotions that had me clinging to Newports started to loosen its hold on me.
Though I struggled with many attempts to let it go, I just decided I did not want to do it anymore, put the cigarettes down and never went back to it. I think the easiest way to give up something you want to eliminate out of your life is to do it cold turkey. Now when I get around someone who is smoking, over ten years later since I had me last smoke, the aroma of the cigarette turns my stomach.
If you are like me, maybe you struggle with climbing mountains to make that change from smoker to non-smoker; here are some ideas that might help to to contain the urge:
1. Whenever you feel tempted for a stogie which for me was every 45 minutes, have a piece of chewing gum, candy or a snack instead.
2. If you are stressed out at your desk and your relief tends to be a smoke, why not use the time to engage in a conversation with someone in-person or on the phone. Take a walk with you friend if you are used to moving away from your desk since that has been your routine.
3. Don’t focus on the hope of the next cigarette break. Instead, engage in an audio book and focus your mind on that. Might help you to forget if you are listening to something biographical, action-packed or romantic.
Some other things I quit cold turkey are
Alcohol Drinking . . . (I Was Once an alcoholic)
Doubting in my Singing and Songwriting Ability
Believing what Naysayers Think
Allowing Church Folks to Drive Me Away From Church
How about you? Care to share? What had its grip on you that you eliminated out of your life and are thankful for? I tell you; the list-making of things like this, only increases self-love and awareness of how much of a powerful individual you really are.